I Once Was Lost

Have you heard testimonies from children who were brought up surrounded by the Bible and strong Christian examples and yet were not true believers? I, sadly, was one of those children.

My father ministered with the Mission for years in a remote village. He labored to bring the Good News to people in surrounding villages who had never heard of Him. Many made commitments to Him and grew. But one of his sons only ‘nominally’ assented to Christ and His message … me.

When I was a young adult, one of my younger brothers who was in the Navy had a tragic accident and lapsed into a coma. His life hung by a thread. I wondered: “Could medical intervention save his life? Did man have the power to save his life?” Despite surgery and good medical care, my beloved brother died.

This threw me into a tailspin. I angrily lashed out at God—and shouted aloud to my father—“What kind of God would take the life of a promising young man who loved Him and wanted to serve Him and his country? How can you give your life to such a God?”

Although it’s hard to believe, I had become involved in Communism. At first, I entered it because I was deceived, but then I embraced it and even promoted it. My life was headed in a steady direction away from God.

The day after my brother was buried I had a dream: I saw myself dead in a coffin. The dream was so real I had to pinch myself when I awoke to make sure I really wasn’t dead. I began to weep as the Holy Spirit convicted me of my sinful lifestyle. The Holy Spirit spoke to me: “You are dead. If you want to live, you will live for Me…or you will die.” I wept and wept. I told God I would serve Him and forsake the evil path I was on.

I married in 1991. I attended training for six months with a wonderful Christian ministry. During this time I truly ‘did business with God,’ gave my life to Jesus and committed myself deeply to Him. I went to seminary and earned a Bachelor of Divinity degree.

I served in various Christian capacities. My faith became grounded and I had God’s peace. Today I serve with a worldwide ministry and God has blessed me more than I could have imagined. I work with hundreds of churches in a large city in India, and have begun a city-wide, church-networked prayer ministry for my state. God is not finished with me yet. I pray my life will honor Him and that the Lord Jesus will use me to bring much fruit into His Kingdom.

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